being with you is all i ever want. just thinking of you alone keeps me contented. but are you happy? being with me? i can tell you are not. seeing you happy is enough. keeping you by my side is an incentive. i'd love to keep you by my side. by am i worth it? i cant even achieve the basics of being a girlfriend. making you angry seems like the only thing i ever do. im such a failure. no matter how hard i try we'll end up quarrelling somehow. am i worth this trouble. darling, i would do everything i can to keep you happy, even if it means leaving you.
im sorry.
pretty busy nowadays. dont even have the time for my precious darling. felt so horrible ydae. i cant reverse time. and it hurts regretting, and knowing i cant do anything to make it up for it. sometimes i feel like giving up this life i have, this life that i have lead with such failure. maiking everyone unhappy, and nothing seems to go right. how long can i last, i dunno...
